I just did a quick browse through my blog and became very ashamed at the fact that I haven’t been writing here at all – haven’t been writing, period. And what kind of writer does that make me?

That was a dramatic rhetorical question.

On a serious note, I am pretty annoyed with myself, considering that two of my posts – from well over a year ago – are about “coming back” and promising to write more. Past self, what are you doing? Present self is rolling her eyes at you.

Present self also has two more weeks of school left before she is done with college and has a bachelor’s degree.

Present self is turning 22 on the same day of her commencement.

Present self has worked two internships, spent three weeks in the Philippines and accomplished an amazing PCN season as tinikling coordinator since her last post.

Present self is overwhelmed with a myriad of emotions. I’m scared for the real world and the true test of being an adult to begin, excited to be taking on the next adventure, sad about leaving college and everything connected to CSULB, motivated to achieve my dreams and make my family proud, eager to see where my path will take me, nervous about all the big changes coming up… and so many other feelings. (Switched from third to first person there, whoops.)

Despite the anxious feelings in my stomach and head, I’ve been trying to remember to stay grounded in the amazing people I have in my life. I am always thankful for them, as well as for my education (thank you mom and dad) and all the experiences, good and bad, that I’ve had up to this point.

It’s an understatement to say that I’m overwhelmed and feeling lost about the future, but one step at a time, right?

I can’t believe I’m graduating in less than two weeks now. Here’s to taking in every single step on campus, the hangouts at The Nugget or USU, the lectures and the assignments that I have left. Oh CSULB, I will miss you so.